Back to where I belong

after a self imposed exile for more than 1 yr , am back to where i was on my way to finding myself.

some one asked me some days back , if my search was over . Far from it infact. Maybe I ve been spending the last few months trying to soak in things around me and that’s why perhaps haven’t been able to put them down in so many words. Its complicated, and yet so simple.

My obsession with starting off afresh worked wonders as far as blogging went too. Fancy names , unfinished posts , views on travel , life and people in general . some plans , some opinions . have been dappling with over 5 blogs all abandoned some where along the line.

And now that am back to this address. maybe at a different point in life than where i left it. I feel am home.

Moment Of Truth?

Found myself in the middle of the most awful scenarios work wise . yet again.

And it all turned out fine . As of now.

There was this moment sometime back then , when i was in the middle of all the chaos.

And I realised . There’s nothing at all that hassles me , overwhelms me , wears me down – enough to scare me.

And i realised . Its this thought that really scared me to bits.

:)

sometimes the most unusual things happen , when you least expect them.trying to survive a strange day at work . i just sent across a message to my very very dear friend PS.CM : Whats the most interesting thing thats happened to you lately?
PS: You
I couldnt help thinking , how this was the most amazing thing that anyone had ever said about me. :)

10 Things You NOW Know About Me .. D !

In my over enthusiasm to educate ( read warn) D of what he’s marrying into , I keep coming up with these random things you know , to essentially carry on all the talking.

I am not too sure how much we know of each other so far , but there were a lot of things that he doesnt know about me . the list is long , but then this could be a good start . 

1. My most upsetting bad habit – Nail biting. I am trying to leave it ever since i ve crawled & walked on earth!I am still trying.

2. My Idea of a perfect date : Long drive , great music , lots of talking. ( use this precious info well)

3. I am a true blue romantic. but am not the flowers and candle light person ( i think) . I believe in signs, like the world turning into a prettier place , one humming inside one’s head , walking around with a swing in one’s step . Doing little things to show one cares . etc etc. The song- “tumhi dekho na” – is exactly how i think romance is .

4. My biggest scare in life : being misunderstood. it happens too often . people tend to be judgemental and take stuff negatively too often coz perhaps thats convenient.

5. I think an Ice cream can cure a bad day. Black current , choco almond , choco coffee , choco chips – my fav flavours.

6. I love words . Anything that sounds pretty / deep or plain interesting , captures my attention and holds it. even if its on a hoarding on a traffic light ! I seriously feel a word is worth a thousand pictures.

7. I love songs ( and am not talking abt only guessing songs within seconds of them starting). I think poetry is an art that is as difficult to comprehend and its to write , so people who genuinely understand poetry totally fascinate me.

8. I have very very vivid dreams . I believe in what i see , being a reflection of what am thinking and what might happen. I feel they have a meaning and they have signs that one needs to read . My most reoccuring dream is a broken teeth ( symbolises , something changing , breaking of a relationship ) , me falling off from some where like a cliff , or bed ( shows some situation in life is getting out of my control)

9. My biggest fear – tripping off stair case , i truly dread escalators. You ll never know this when you would be riding one with me . but inside i am like totallly scared to death – I dont know its one of those silly little things.

10. My chant or mantra – “If i smile and tell myself , it ll all be fine . it does happen that way”. I dont believe in god. I believe in fate / destiny. There s a reason behind everything that happens , we see , we feel , we go through. we just have to read closer into the signs that are thrown at us all the time.

I could go on … should i?

Am back!

am back and how!

well.. after the self imposed exile … am back to writing abt the crazy stuff inside my head.

whats the last few days ( one month infact) been like?

life s changed completely .. .from being single to being ‘engaged’! , from taking things as they come to start making a difference ( work , outside work.. everything in between and beyond) .

The search for the elusive Mr Right is complete – now the journey towards knowing if he ‘s actually the MR RIGHT starts off .

I guess am back with a sort of make over .

How s this new – me .. going to be ?

1. working towards a “better me” ( to hell with all those .. kareena critics .. I think the babe looks drop dead gorgeous and why should nt i aim at that?)

2. working towards a “better me” ( to hell with all those .. mood spoilers .. if you dont know how to speak and be congenial .. not an issue with me .. go ahead ruin your day , but you cant do that any more for me!)

3. working towards a “better me” ( catching up with a lot of ppl i left behind. managing relationships was always my forte .. so why should things be any different now?)

so .. in a nut shell i guess .. its working towards a “better me” :)

more soon!