The Girl on the Radio !

There’s this girl on the radio and i think i’ve never had such a mixed set of feeling for a person i ‘ve never met , that i have for her.

firstly , she ‘s an RJ and safely a good one at that( Feeling broadly filed under - admiration) . Her one hour of banter about as per her “things that just dont matter” is one of the shows i try my best not to miss , so much so that i adjust my driving back to home hour as per its relay time ( category- sense of loyalty). she touches upon topics that we wouldnt really now a days chat over coffee with friends , even though they effect all of us and make more than our morning news-page 1 reading . Ironically , that’s something I would rather chat with my colleagues and friends and D every day instead of movie trivia and office gossip , considering our views match most of the time. perhaps coz both of us want to think on a more ‘to each his own’ line  ( Feeling – a sense of intellectual connection).

And then there are times i wish i could whack her on her head and sort of root her out of her comfy chair at the studio where she s perhaps sitting and telling the world what she thinks is right/wrong/worthy or not. (feeling – slight irritation bordering on jealousy) . simply put – i wish i had that freedom to go tell the world what i think abt polygamy , open marriages , treatment of women , media’s fascination with homo sexuality .. beep beep beep.

And i cant . I ve been craving for a hearty argument. about something relevant. Something that effects people in more ways than perhaps – the hike in petrol prices and the change in tax policy does.

A lot of times i have held myself back from calling up and telling her what i feel about what she’s taken up as the theme of the day . I end up having this talk with her in my head – even if its as juvenile as my views on ” do you feel you are getting paid enough?!” And i see her wording my thoughts soon enough and i think to myself , perhaps its not really required to do that at all.

so my dear GM , i think i have a better way. and what could be more suited to counter your freedom of expression than , having my own page and yakking at it .. ( feeling – a childlike achievement )

All said and done .. I wish you know how lucky you are to be able to do what you like the best ( i think ) and being good at that too ( yes, that am sure of).

How does that sound to you?

A lot of times when i speak with people about how somethings in life arent going as planned , they almost start off with their own thing about how miserable they are.

My misery somehow gives them a cue to open up and pour out the tragedies of their life.  what really surprises me is the comment that most often follows – “well that doesnt seem so bad , you know there are people worse off than you”

well , i have a question here. does the fact that most of the people around me are miserable ( i cant say that for sure , coz most of them dont seem like – but still giving them benefit of doubt) , make my troubles less important?

Does that even come close to justify my problems ? their existence and that i cant seem to find any workable solution to most of them?

i think most of the people i come across have got  a ‘listening disorder’ . Am saying that at the cost of ‘sounding quite rude’ and basis the assumption that I DONT SUFFER from the above mentioned problem! :)

But i think listenining to some one is quite a compliment – especially coz we all seem to be too taken with our own voice and our own ideas. Its open hearted , non – judgemental  and comforting.

And after all said and done , even if we disagree – we should atleast ‘hear’ and ‘know’ what we are disagreeing to . and if we have ‘nothing to say at all ‘ ( and what a blessing that is) it just affirms ones belief that every problem that seems daunting to me seems equally complex to others too!

But isnt listening , a one way communication? not quite . I think all conversations dont happen using the classical tools of the spoken language. The ones that dont need to rely are on words are perhaps the most charming.

Felt like writing a note now , in the middle of the day . i rarely do that during work hours. but if we keep doing what we always do , we ll keep doing what we ve always done!

how does that sound to you?

Good Thing Or Bad Thing!

I am a day away from hitting a month – ever since i started off my blog

and if i am more regular at something other than writing , then that’s checking the stats on the views :)

 And so far .. so good!

With almost negligible publicity .. ( yes , vineet i know i need to tell every one i ve ever know about it – coz they cant dream up their way to it … but what makes you believe that they would be really interested? even if you tell me that some of it has “shards of brilliance” ahem ahem)

so tell me

- is that a good thing or bad thing?

I wanted to mark this occasion with some thing – like a special post

but how ever progressive i might (read wish to portray myself) be - am i not always quite retrospective ?

- is that a good thing or bad thing?

I am not too sure if i am “committed” to writing , that word now some how disturbs me :) , so i would rather be quite regular at some thing , which is comfortably non-committal.

and i am really really not sure ( and certainly not apologetic) if all this rambling is turning out to be quite “intense”( yes , Ships … i just talk too much and sometimes i just get lucky and make some sense … lets see if you could spot those flashes and sparks somewhere .. )

so tell me

 - is that a good thing or bad thing?

I had started off thinking in my mind , that this is going to be a post that would have hues of hidden cues to “please comment if you liked /didnt like something” – but i guess am not managing that well… so the subtlety goes out of the window …

The deal is

I ve had without telling a lot of ppl some tremendous number of views ( am an eternal optimist , yes)

But very very few on-my-blog comments ( discounting the calls , chats , offline comments , scraps , messages etc etc )

and its a little important to me , that if you read what i ve written , when i am not around

and it stays with you for more than just a fraction of second

then you leave a little note telling me about it

Now if that’s a bad thing for you . no sweat. that’s clearly a good thing for me.

so next time you quietly log off after swimming through these vast oceans of text

let me know how it was .. :)

till then … here s to a lovely week end!

The Best Day Of My Life :)

“Whats so special today?”  Some one asked me today  

The comment was provoked by the status on Gtalk – The best day of my Life

Its happened quite frequently now.

How my sometimes odd , sometimes heavy – duty , sometimes freaked out – status messages , help me build up a conversation ( Yes , everything  does boil down to starting off The TALK :) )

Its like an invitation

See me as a person , am not just a name in the list of names on your Gtalk.

Its like a cue

Am creative , I have taken the pains to look for something interesting to appear in front of my inanimate name

Its like a question

I think / am / feel so – and – so , what do you think ? Does it sound interesting / funny / amusing / oh-so-true … to you? why dont you connect with me and tell me about it?

More than anything else – it my way of expressing myself.

and more often than not , i ve realised i end up having a very interesting exchange post some one laps up the clue :)

But what was so special about today ?

Dont know yet .. The Days not over and am waiting for something special to happen….

a post on that soon!

PS : Sankalp , I hope the added visual seasoning , makes the offering more appealing now …

Make Over

 While am on a spree .. here s an old mail that i ‘d written to i guess  a lifestyle show program manager… and got a response from her as well …( she must surely think i am a stuck-up-in-life-teen )

like most things in life that i ve been fascinated with at some point of time  .. was totally taken with the idea of “make – overs”

Read on … it s a good laugh!

Its strange how more often than not we ve started co relate make overs with a true plain-jane-turns-cindrella story!

She s a simple gawky girl , runs away from make up , lives in her jeans …. Turn her into a supermodel for l’oreal … Ta-da there s your one-minute-beauty-queen !

For one day …. !? Not too permanent?

I think that’s a make-feel-good and not a make over!

You just look at yourself in the mirror and kind of see a stranger looking back at you !

Makes you feel kind of okay for a little while . Coz maybe you never imagined yourself in those designer label clothes but Camera stops rolling , shows over , you go back home and next day life s the same.

You are back being the same gawky girl.

Cindrella s back after the clock strikes twelve ?

What’s this conversation abt ? Am I trying to make a point ? Coz there s too much of drama happening … And If I want a makeover for myself I should express the intention fast before we move on to the next one … :)

The point is why don’t we try and revisit these gushing guys n gals a week down the line and try and see if the moment of glory was actually that long ? Or the makeover actually was quite literally something that changed your attitude , your outer appeal , your inner self in any which way!

Beauty after all is skin deep

And today when most things in life are superficial …. Don’t we all need an attitude “makeover” that has a slightly more lasting affect?

Looking forward to a before and after and a much much after :)

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Wish to know what was the response? ask me…..