personally speaking
Posted by: CM on: December 17, 2009
The other day some one said , ” you dont need to take everything so personally” and i thought to myself. “well i am a person , so its all personal to me”
now that i think back with a calm mind. and contemplate. why do we react in a certain way to certain words.
i feel the intensity of our reaction is more or less reflective of how the words were said ( the tone) and more than that perhaps who said it ( the person).
so again. since we are all people. with moods and emotions and other such complex stuff. why are we then accused of taking things personally.
why would you say it , unless you really meant it.
why would you say it to me , unless you really wanted me to understand and soak it in.
then why my reation to it , is termed ‘taking it personally’ like its a bad thing to do?
To a new life!
Posted by: CM on: October 15, 2009
Came across a brand new love ballad on radio ( ahh.. my love for Atif crooning out of my car stereos (to me) just grows) .. and thats not just the only reason i ve been humming to myself.
It’s the thought of something new , thats just around the corner.
well.. like i was telling one my friends the only thing i do consistently is perhaps .. change my life!
for a long while i used to live under the impression that the changes ‘happen’ to me. And some how when i said that , in so many words, i realised. i think i like change and in some strange way , i yearn for it , crave for it and go around and make it happen myself.
I wouldnt want to believe that i get bored very easily and those around me would faint at the slightest mention of the idea that deep deep down , under the facade of a very sensible , seemingly level headed calm and colected person that i appear as – there is a very very restless spirit .
so here we go again. another change. another starting afresh. a brand new space to work and new set of people. one more chance to reinvent myself. almost like some one with a Multiple personality disorder ( ahhh.. thats harsh , but slightly true) i look forward to be this new person .
here’s to a new life!
Tanhai Mein Fursat
Posted by: CM on: August 26, 2009
There is a strange sense of quiet around me.
Used to wonder if its the proverbial silence before the storm. I practically killed a couple of months hanging around partly pissed off , partly pleased. fluctuating between a state of utter and complete boredom and that of enjoying the kind of worklessness i ve never ever known before .
From feeling absolutely useless through the month , to feeling as lucky as a jackpot winner as i checked my salary account by the end of the month. From getting back to blogging the way i enjoy it to taking as many chuttis as i wish to for travel or festivals or just like thats . Planning a zillion things i think i want to do , and not really doing anything other than cooking like a pro for my dearest hubby feeling like the ever loving housewife by the evening.
The last few months of nothing-ness were packed with a lot of stuff i wouldnt have been able to manage if i was doing something , anything , everything i expect myself to do as a high flying executive.
I used to live each day like it was my last day of life in slow motion. Waiting in a painful anticipation that Very soon I know the life in fast forward would start off.
Sometimes , Songs come to you when you are in a particular state of mind and they whirl around in your head till you break down each word to perfectly make sense of things around you.
Shayad isliye , Tanhai mein fursat di hai .
Have you ever ….?
Posted by: CM on: August 26, 2009
I think I ve been on a self proclaimed exile from people in general. Sure , they are so many of them around all the time – keen on living it up in public gaze , but some how more than , people – its thoughts that have always been more worthy of any investments as far as my time and energy is concerned.
perhaps , its all a sign of growing up .. like there was actually any scope of being any more ‘grown’ up than some one with an emotional age of 80!
but , some things i’ve been observing in people lately. And been thinking about some things in pure fascniation of how they demonstrate simple facts like “how – people – work” almost magically . or driving me nuts in pure irrationality of it all .
Have you ever attended the ladies Loo sessions ?
Have you ever been to a ladies loo and seen a group of girls plonked on the wash basin area discussing anything and everything under the sun. Who ever wondered where these crazy office rumours starts off , well take a sneak peek at one of these ‘guppa sessions’ and you ll know. everything that’s supposed to be ‘confidential’ goes ‘off the record’ in the safe confines of the ladies loo!
Have you ever walked in and out of a loo as you walk when you talk ?
Worse , and now that am married i can safely comment about this being a habit with not just women but men as well . Obviously we are so so hardpressed for time and be it a chat with some one we ve been planning to catch up with for a while now , or generally a discussion about the latest meeting we hopped out of . Phone stuck to our ear , blabbering away to glory – we walk in and out of loos , using our time well as we relieve ourselves!EeW!
I am suprised how no one ever cuts off the chat in the middle of the narrative of kareena’s latest getaway with saif – hey what was that flushing sound all about!!I sincerely hope , i dont have to accompany some one right into the loo . I can wait till you get out of it . However earth shattering the matter be! really !
Have you ever expressed yourself on Facebook?
And thank goodness for Face book. Now we can tell the whole world exactly what we think , eat , plan , do and not do all the time. I think the most entertaining way to start your day now is to simple glance through the FB status messages of friends and friends of friends. yeah right.. I am that ‘workless’ but then who isnt? There are people who would land from the plane and update the world , wade through the traffic and inform the whole tribe of net – friends , who would miss some one and let every one know , would be up till 3 AM and change their status message at wee hours of the morning to document the fact. One of my friends is celebrating his birthday today . His friends surprised him at 12 in night with a cake. Sweet. His status at 3 AM in the night thanked all these spl people , plus his album was updated with their happy snaps capturing the general glee. ahh.. heart – warming indeed.
Have you ever hogged the entire changing room and felt quite ‘at home’ ?
This one ’s absolutely my fav. Mummy , aunty , sis , chachi .. the whole tribe of generations and generations of females – with atleast half the clothes from XS to XXL , off the the hangers of the entire floor – taking the phrase ‘trial room’ to the next level. Have you ever been through this ever? Waited , As the mute spectator , waiting in line for one of the rooms to get free before you turn too old and too fat to wear the cocktail dress in your hand watching helplessly . Or heard , as you struggled into the – oh -so – pretty top that should rather be on display than on you , how what’s too tight or too lose , or too long or too short or should rather be in sunshine yellow or tomato red . suggestions being exchanged all over the place , thrown from one changing room to another .
Have you ever seen any of this , or much better ? :D
What a Weekend!
Posted by: CM on: August 17, 2009
Three days , Some crazy train ticket shockers , Non stop travelling , The land of lakes , Fog floating on water , Cloud enveloping hills , The most breathtaking views , Chilly air on our face as we walk while we talk , Random Word Antaksharis ,Last minute planning and then change in plans , Royal ditching by the cabbies , Rains splashing up our windscreens , The most amazing piping hot street food , Nainital – Bhimtal- Naukuchiatal – Ranikhet- Ramgarh – Mukteshwar – Kathgodam . Phew! What a trip!
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